Hurt and pain. Somehow this doesn't seem foreign to me, in fact, it is the friend that I unwillingly have. I have felt it so often but how come I'm still hurt and feeling the pain? I really don't know what to do anymore. Whatever I do seems futile and useless. It's all in vain. I just keep hurting myself over and over again. It just never stops. I feel so alone and indeed I am. No one's there to catch my tears and my smile and laughter are contradicting this lonely life of mine. I try to make it happen, to make me happy but I can't. I don't wanna lie to myself. I am hurt and I'm really hurt badly. I feel as if a knife is being stabbed into me again and again, each thrust deeper than the last. I really want to make it stop but I can't. I'm lonely, I'm sad and unfortunately, only sorrow comes consoling me, making me even more miserable. I try to understand everything that had happ...
It's sad how someone can go from being the reason you wake up smiling, to the reason you cry yourself to sleep. Sometimes, being strong means not holding back the tears but letting them fall. It's funny how you think you actually mean something to someone, & they just turn around & prove you wrong.