Dear Husband

Dear Diary, I cut my hair short today. I never had a concave hair style before but F*** it. Just trying out. This is all Shima's ideas. So short but can say nice. Shima and her cranky brain ideas. Thank Shima for the suggestion. The saloon located at Averton near by my work place. We still got a lot of work to do but can manage to pit stop here for a haircut. Cuteness. LOL

Dear Diary, We both become postman each second of the weekend. With my gym bag full of letters claiming for their money. It's not easy working in Law Firm you know.

Dear Diary, After work done, Shima need to do some errands. So I and she when to town for some ION- ing . She try to push open the MIU MIU door but it's lock . Stupid Shima, it's close. Without realizing ION is close. We actually so late to clean our eyes with items. DAMN! And then Shima wanted to chill at bar before proceed home. And y ou see what Shima have bought for me. She knows I don't drink but she insists me to drink accompany her. I thought she was asking me to follow her to town for what purpose and this is her purpose. Idiot friend . My very first Margarita. The taste kind of awful and the smell too. Well due to she already bought it and give her some face I drink it BUT only for one glass. Finally the drinks finish and BOOM my stomach hurt. It's burning inside me. Thanks eyk  Shima.

Dear Diary, A song to remember. Love How It Hurts -  SCOUTING FOR GIRLS I've been waiting All my life For someone like you To come mess with my mind Someone crazy Someone who Someone who'll love me The way I loved you I keep searching And what's worse Now that you're gone, All that's left is the hurt Three little words That's all that I've got Three little words,   Like it or not Tell me you noticed? Tell me you heard? For you I'd have run to the ends of the Earth I couldn't keep you, but I'll keep my word It's the most beautiful pain in the world I love how it hurts I've been trying Since you left Trying to fix all the   bits that you wrecked I'm just waiting Till it mends Then I'll let you break   it again and again Three little words That's all that I've got Three little words,   Like it or not Tell ...

How can a person who been with you for so long don’t even know you in and out? How can that particular person whom you love a lot hurt you deeply and tearing your heart apart into pieces? Have my patients all been wasted? Must I still be patient and wait for my-so-call-miracle to happen? For how long must I endure hurt just to be happy with you? What have you seen in me? Are my changes not enough for you to see that I love you? How can you only see my mistakes but didn’t even realize the agony I’ve been keeping to myself? How deep more will you hurt me? I love you a lot. I really do. Can’t you see that or “Will you ever notice it?” ♥ Aspidarina ♥

Dear Diary, Life is not how I  imagine it will be for me this year. Fairol has gone again. He leaves me again for another girl which is his X but different one this time round. Is it a right feeling to feel right now? I feel so lonely. All I do is work and work just too occupied my times but still I feel the loneliness within me.   Giving up is my option for now. But I'm still hanging on as I don't want people to have the coward image in them bout me. This things this Shit is more unbearable than I am imaging it is. Please! All I ask for attention but I will always get lonely in the end. ITS NOT BLADY FAIR FOR ME!

Dear Diary, Listen to this song make me even more lonely.  You Are The One - C21 It's early in the morning soon another day will dawn I can't wait to feel your arms around me again I believe that we could  lay down the world together we could live the dream that never ends Open up the door just a little more baby let me in You are the one, You are the one who can make moments last forever The one that makes the sun shine  where ever you go, You are the one why make it harder, than it has to be just listen, I'll give you love  if you'll give me your heart Everytime I near you time is standing still there's nothing you can't fix with your heavenly smile I would never leave you  my love is for life taking things for granted was never my style Just give a little love say you'll never stop I'll do anything You are the one, You are the one who can make moments last forever The one that makes the sun shine  where ever you go, Yo...

Dear Diary, Do you remember the guy I'm missing? I finally meet him. Overjoy but he's attached. Pity huh! It's ok. Maybe we can only just befriend but not more than that I guess. I wanted to tell him that I do feel jealous when he texting some other girls but who am I right? So I've been keeping it to myself and I still meet him. I don't want to feel miss towards him.

Dear Diary, It's a brand new year for me to start changing myself. Such a relief.  I release before my birthday. I have to forget all my past and move forward being a better person for all. I can't write the blog when I'm "THERE". I miss you. And I'm surprised that I do miss someone else. How can I find him? Maybe not. Because before I went in, he left me and back with his X Echa. Haiz. Maybe I'm just his past time. But I was wondering why am I missing him. But whatever it is, this is my friend which been there for me regardless of my bad temper in there. They help me to control the bad from me. Kept on fighting with cellmates, prisoner warden and etc. I didn't know that I had such bad temper. Well, thank god I'm releasing now. You know what??? It means it's time for me to be someone else. Bye Bye

                      Im back from holiday