Dear Husband

Dear Diary, A song to remember. Love How It Hurts -  SCOUTING FOR GIRLS I've been waiting All my life For someone like you To come mess with my mind Someone crazy Someone who Someone who'll love me The way I loved you I keep searching And what's worse Now that you're gone, All that's left is the hurt Three little words That's all that I've got Three little words,   Like it or not Tell me you noticed? Tell me you heard? For you I'd have run to the ends of the Earth I couldn't keep you, but I'll keep my word It's the most beautiful pain in the world I love how it hurts I've been trying Since you left Trying to fix all the   bits that you wrecked I'm just waiting Till it mends Then I'll let you break   it again and again Three little words That's all that I've got Three little words,   Like it or not Tell ...

How can a person who been with you for so long don’t even know you in and out? How can that particular person whom you love a lot hurt you deeply and tearing your heart apart into pieces? Have my patients all been wasted? Must I still be patient and wait for my-so-call-miracle to happen? For how long must I endure hurt just to be happy with you? What have you seen in me? Are my changes not enough for you to see that I love you? How can you only see my mistakes but didn’t even realize the agony I’ve been keeping to myself? How deep more will you hurt me? I love you a lot. I really do. Can’t you see that or “Will you ever notice it?” ♥ Aspidarina ♥

Dear Diary, Life is not how I  imagine it will be for me this year. Fairol has gone again. He leaves me again for another girl which is his X but different one this time round. Is it a right feeling to feel right now? I feel so lonely. All I do is work and work just too occupied my times but still I feel the loneliness within me.   Giving up is my option for now. But I'm still hanging on as I don't want people to have the coward image in them bout me. This things this Shit is more unbearable than I am imaging it is. Please! All I ask for attention but I will always get lonely in the end. ITS NOT BLADY FAIR FOR ME!