Dear Husband

We can think of what to type to describe the feeling we felt. We may also re-edit and change the words, in any case, we find it unsuitable for our feeling felt. But, it just words over words no matter how marvellous we put it to let others somehow feel a bit of our agony from the words used. The pain we felt, no words can really describe it in deep details as words can’t be felt. It only meant to be read at without any emotions touch. Sometimes, you end up run out of words to write. And sometimes, the words we use to reach out is not the right one to use. Staring at the blank screen page hoping for it to write itself of what exactly we are facing in our everyday journey. To hope so deep is not a wise thing to do. Too much hoping can actually cause you terrible pain. “I hope. I hurt. I love and now, I’m in Agony.”

I believe that none could love you quite as deeply as I do; And yet I often fail to show the depth of it to you. I vow to do the little things, to show you every day; But one thing or another seems to get in the way. I pledge to be more open, to have the courage and be strong; But somehow fear takes over and then everything goes wrong. I dream of perfect love for us, and hope that it will be; And yet I end up giving you a less than perfect me. I want to be much more for you, be everything you need. I hope and seek, beg and pray “Change me, God! “, I plead. You are the only one I want. It is for you I yearn. I guess, my love, there’s still so much that I have yet to learn. I cannot give perfection, but this I promise I will do – I will spend my life learning how to give my love to you.

Everybody’s looking for a something, one thing that makes it all complete. Well, for me it’s waking up beside you, to watch the sunrise on your face, to know that I can say, ‘I love you,’ in any given time or place. Never give up on something you really want. It’s difficult to work hard for it and wait for it, but it’s even more difficult to regret. They told me that to make him fall in love I had to make him laugh. But every time he laughs I’m the one who falls in love. A great love? It’s when you shed tears and still you care for him, it’s when he ignores you and still you long for him, it’s when he begins to love another and yet you still smile and say, I’m happy for you.

I have learned that sometimes sorry is not enough. Sometimes you actually have to change. A big lesson that we must learn in life is that though things do not always go our way if we are willing to keep a positive attitude and keep a positive mindset in our daily lives period, there is nothing that can get in our way.                          Don’t fear failure so much that you refuse to try new things. The saddest summary of a life contains three descriptions: could have, might have, and should have. So no matter what happens, or how bad it seems today, life does go on, and it will be better tomorrow. This is what I always remind myself and this is also what makes me stronger each day whenever im falling down.