Dear Husband

When he says "Its your fault! Its your fault for not telling people you are married before." That sentence cut me deep. Im speechless. When his friend says "Guy like him you leave. Never miss his prayers." Im thankful he have change for better. It got me thinking. It is my fault for keeping my sorrows? It is my fault for keeping mum of what had happen in our marriage? I guess, it is my fault.

Oh my God! I can't believe what I receive when I reach home. Im so happy till I almost shed tears. Ok I'll tell it from the start. Today, I have live firing at Pasir Labar in Army Camp. The program ends at 6 pm. Husband whatsapp me like normal. When I reach Joo Khoon MRT, he was there waiting for me. He surprises me. When I reach home, it's kind of late already and I need to prepare food for Husband to break his fast. So I took all the food and wait for him to finish praying. (Here is the surprise) When I scoop for him his rice, I saw Ayam Sambal. And I say "Eh Ayam Sambal! Ejan like know only we just talked about this meal". He smiles and say " Tu la". I the idiot go and tell Ejan that we just spoke about that meal and her answer shock me. "Fairol the one who cook it just now" she said. Oh my God!!! He surprise me further. I just look at him and kept looking at him. He smiling. He said Im the first girl he ever cook for. Im smiling whi...

Is our communication skill breaks down? What had happen to us? Stepping on each other wrong foot. We end up quarreling when we actually wanted to have a decent conversation.  I hate it!

I wanted to write something but I can't find the right word to put it in. I love him. I love him a lot more than I can say. He gave me the happiness I yearn for. While studying in his school, I think of him. I'm sad that at time the real message I wanna reach him turns out wrong. He understood it wrongly. I don't know how to explain it to him. One day he will understand me. Maybe not now or today. I pray that he could do his exam smoothly.