Dear Husband

I miss you so much suddenly. What worse is that I’ve started tripping myself. I was talking to myself. I kept seeing you around me and pampering me. I saw you doing the thing you love the most, deejaying at one corner. I am starting to be crazy each day now… Im sorry, I force myself to do all of this towards you. I can't sleep without you beside me. But no matter what and how it is, I won't show it to you. Im no longer who you use to know. Im different. Im always high just liked you. “When you show him, he is your world but by his ways and actions of losing you mean nothing to him, “

This morning, I woke up with tears in my eyes and your memories in mind. I miss you so very much. I loved you when no one else did. I gave you chances. I invested my time and energy for you. I miss it when you say I was the most beautiful woman in the world and that you’ll love me until the end of time. The guy who I spend hours with, just talking and laughing and talking some more. I miss the guy who looked at me like I was his whole world and held me tight, making me feel more love than I ever knew was possible. I miss the kind guy whose kiss filled my insides with a thousand butterflies. I miss waking up with you laying next to me, watching your chest rise and fall as you continued to sleep deeply. Don’t you ever say I lied about how I felt? I will always love you and even though you said those mean things in the end, I prayed last night for you. I asked the Lord to give you the courage to live again. I also pleaded that you won’t be lonely when I’m gone. I want you to be happy, fo...